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SATURDAY
NIGHT
Volume 7

Untold Stories of
Sexual Assault at
Harvard
NOTE FROM THE EDITORS
Dear Reader,
Thank you for choosing to read Saturday Night: Untold Stories of Sexual Assault at Harvard. This year, we
launched our inaugural edition in a completely online format. We wanted to make our edition more ‘green’
as well as more interactive from years past. With the new online format, we utilized more images and
introduced gifs that just could not have been incorporated into our usual print format. We hope that readers
find the format change more engaging and full and energy than in years past.
We have two main goals for this publication. First, we want to address the dynamics of sexual assault by
expanding our understanding of what sexual assault means, where it happens, and how it impacts the lives of
everyone in our society. Second, we want to make the call to action apparent. We cannot change ‘rape’
culture or the attitudes imbued in it unless we all are actively involved in the process of recognizing it and its
components, making the appropriate amendments to our culture, and encouraging a healthy attitude
towards sex, not one based on dominance or suppression of any gender.
Our new format will hopefully build upon the success of our past editions. We hope this format encourages
you, as the readers, to talk about about rape perception and reactions to ‘rape’ culture. As a publication, we
can only present the stories of those affected and the ones who witness the over-bearing machine of
misogyny and ignorance in our culture today. As our readers, we invite you to share our edition with others
and have open dialogues about your part in the change. Unless we stand up together and inform our
friends, families, and communities, we cannot change ‘rape’ culture. So, today, we invite you to become part
of the discussion and thank you in advance for any impact you will have.
The Saturday Night at Harvard team,
Parul Agarwal, Francis Cambronero, Christopher Hopper, Jenny Martin, Jonathan Stevens, and Felicia Sun
Saturday Night at Harvard 1
NOTES TO OUR READERS
 names in the narratives have been changed.
All
 you would like to submit narratives or commentary for future editions, please
If
visit www.osapr.harvard.edu for more information. All submissions are held in
strict confidence.
 individuals in the graphics do not relate to the narratives in which they are
The
featured nor does Saturday Night claim any ownership to these images.

Saturday Night: Untold Stories of Sexual Assault at Harvard is edited by Harvard
undergraduate students. Our advisor is Sarah Rankin, Director of the Office of
Sexual Assault Prevention and Response at Harvard University.

This publication contains a variety of opinions concerning sexual assault. As
editors, we do not endorse one particular view but leave it up to you, the
reader, to decide where you stand.

ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
Saturday Night would not have been possible without the help and
contributions of a few individuals. Our deepest thanks go to the Saturday Night
staff: Parul Agarwal, Francis Cambronero, Christopher Hopper, Jenny
Martin, Jonathan Stevens, and Felicia Sun. We also would like to extend a big
thanks to Francis Cambronero who spent countless hours on the magazine’s
layout design, Parul Agarwal for her creative visual input, and the staff at
OSAPR for their guidance and support. Finally, this publication would not have
been possible without the submissions themselves. Thank you to all our
contributors for your willingness to share your stories and experiences. Your
words will touch many people and will be used to raise awareness and dialogue
about this important issue.
2 April 2013
TABLETABLE OF CONTENTS
OF CONTENTS
4
5
7
8
11
12
13
15
16
19

The Question We Can’t Ask
This is About Freshman Year
Take Care
To My Ex
I Am Afraid of Parties
You Can’t Be Friends with a Rapist
2x Friday Night
To You
[Untitled] There is a Marked
Difference….
Resources

Saturday Night at Harvard 3
Who tells us the questions we can’t ask?
Who says when things should be kept secret?
When did I stop asking myself about it?
Where did I hide all the things I wouldn’t ask?
Why did it happen to me?
When will I stop feeling like it’s my fault?

The
Questions
We Can’t
Ask
4 April 2013

Will I ever forget how it felt?
Will I ever feel like me again?

Why can’t anyone ask me about it?
What would I say if they did?
When do I stop feeling like it was yesterday?
When does it become ok to finally share?
Why won’t I tell you why I hurt?
Why do I fear your response about something
I didn’t do?
Would you ever forgive me?
Will I ever forgive me?
Will anyone ever know what really happened?
Would anyone do anything if they did? ■
This is
about
freshman
year
Saturday Night at Harvard 5
6 April 2013
It appears as if I have run through a pricker-bush.
my insides and hidden places have fine fault lines about to
fall to pieces if you so dare to place one finger on me,
and I have yet to wash the second-mouth American-Spirit smoke from my
bitter bleeding lips.
My hands taste of ice cubes and salt licks,
and a musty nothingness which is hard in my stomach.
I will rinse away the pained mouthful of air, watch it curl and fall
in avalanches to the porcelain lake where it will become the greywater.
I will warm my cold feet, scrub the spring
and the death of one thousand leaves off the soles.
limp bleeding carcasses held in a retriever’s tender jaw:
a story from my scalp.
apples bruised from a late-fall storm:
another tale inside my pores which cup an intensely human smell we try to hide,
so we can pretend we are more than the flesh
when we cannot escape our own.
My dear, look in my eyes.
There are not always reasons for these happenings.
Storm clouds roll in and break
your Hands are still your own
your Lips,
your Skin
Remember you are made of flesh,
But it cannot will itself to stagger to your feet—
that is for you to do. ■

TAKE
Saturday Night at Harvard 7
To my ex,

8 April 2013
To
My ex

Saturday Night at Harvard 9
10 April 2013
I am afraid of parties,
Of finals clubs,
Of drinking.
I am afraid to go out
And have the stereotypical college good time.
I am afraid to talk to new people
Who aren’t friends of friends
Who haven’t been vetted as cool and trustworthy.
Because my friends are all great;
They never do anything I don’t want to do.
And if we go too far,
Well, that’s my fault
For not knowing my limits before going in.
And I can’t even imagine how awful that would be
With people who aren’t my friends,
Who I may never see again,
Who don’t care about me,
And who won’t be criticized if I run home crying.
But the truth is,
I want to meet new people,
Make new friends,
Maybe even find someone special.
My friends are great,
But more would be even better, right?
More perspectives, more voices, more insights,
More people.
But I am afraid of meeting people,
Of them dismissing me as nothing more than female
Because I wear skirts and dresses and low cut shirts
Because I have breasts and hips and a waist and long hair
Because I enjoy being adorable outside of the classroom.
Because, you see, I am more than female.
I am a person, full of thoughts and fears and love.
Who needs to be treated as a person
Or she breaks.
And so I am afraid of parties
Where no one knows my name,
Let alone me. ■

2x Friday
night

I am Afraid
Of parties
By a quiet,
anonymous girl

Saturday Night at Harvard 11
You can’t be friends with a rapist, they said,
You’d never let a rapist hang out in your crowd.
You don’t go to crazy raves or sleep around,
That kind of friend just wouldn’t be allowed.

Rapists don’t comfort you when you’re upset,
Or offer to help you with your homework.
He’s not a rapist; he doesn’t fit that description.
At worst, a few times he’s acted like a jerk!

But most of all you go to heavenly Harvard,
There aren’t any rapists here.
Going to a great place like this takes care of that,
You couldn’t even know a rapist, have no fear.

It’s easy to avoid rapists- they all look the same,
They feed people drinks and act super sleezy,
You wouldn’t meet that kind of person, so just
relax,
Avoiding that kind of friend is far too easy.

You can’t go on trips with a rapist,
And you wouldn’t go out to bars with one.
You wouldn’t hang out every weekend,
A rapist would definitely not be so fun.

Rapists aren’t our peers or our classmates,
They don’t live in our houses or dorms.
They don’t eat in our d-halls or share common
spaces,
Anyone who says otherwise, surely misinforms.

But he can’t be a rapist, he’s got too many
friends.
A rapist can’t be handsome, funny, or charming,
They don’t do well in school or plan nice dates.
You’d know if a person’s behavior was harming.

You wouldn’t have great memories with a rapist,
You couldn’t possible care about that kind of
person.
You wouldn’t have great conversations,
So drop these accusations before opinions of
you worsen.

A rapist doesn’t dress so well or smell so nice,
They don’t cheer you up and make people laugh.
They aren’t the leaders of their organizations,
Or deal with added frustrations on your behalf.

You can’t be Friends
with a rapist
12 April 2013

Rapists don’t go to Harvard.
Trust us. You can’t be friends with a rapist.
So many people still call him friend,
It may be so clear but they keep on denying.
It’s not easy to see someone for who they are,
It took me a long time to finally stop rationalizing. ■
2x Friday
night
Saturday Night at Harvard 13
14 April 2013
To you

Saturday Night at Harvard 15
16 April 2013
Saturday Night at Harvard 17
18 April 2013
Saturday Night at Harvard 19
20 April 2013
Saturday Night at Harvard 21
22 April 2013
Saturday Night at Harvard 23
24 April 2013
Saturday Night at Harvard 25

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Saturday Night at Harvard 2013

  • 1. SATURDAY NIGHT Volume 7 Untold Stories of Sexual Assault at Harvard
  • 2. NOTE FROM THE EDITORS Dear Reader, Thank you for choosing to read Saturday Night: Untold Stories of Sexual Assault at Harvard. This year, we launched our inaugural edition in a completely online format. We wanted to make our edition more ‘green’ as well as more interactive from years past. With the new online format, we utilized more images and introduced gifs that just could not have been incorporated into our usual print format. We hope that readers find the format change more engaging and full and energy than in years past. We have two main goals for this publication. First, we want to address the dynamics of sexual assault by expanding our understanding of what sexual assault means, where it happens, and how it impacts the lives of everyone in our society. Second, we want to make the call to action apparent. We cannot change ‘rape’ culture or the attitudes imbued in it unless we all are actively involved in the process of recognizing it and its components, making the appropriate amendments to our culture, and encouraging a healthy attitude towards sex, not one based on dominance or suppression of any gender. Our new format will hopefully build upon the success of our past editions. We hope this format encourages you, as the readers, to talk about about rape perception and reactions to ‘rape’ culture. As a publication, we can only present the stories of those affected and the ones who witness the over-bearing machine of misogyny and ignorance in our culture today. As our readers, we invite you to share our edition with others and have open dialogues about your part in the change. Unless we stand up together and inform our friends, families, and communities, we cannot change ‘rape’ culture. So, today, we invite you to become part of the discussion and thank you in advance for any impact you will have. The Saturday Night at Harvard team, Parul Agarwal, Francis Cambronero, Christopher Hopper, Jenny Martin, Jonathan Stevens, and Felicia Sun Saturday Night at Harvard 1
  • 3. NOTES TO OUR READERS  names in the narratives have been changed. All  you would like to submit narratives or commentary for future editions, please If visit www.osapr.harvard.edu for more information. All submissions are held in strict confidence.  individuals in the graphics do not relate to the narratives in which they are The featured nor does Saturday Night claim any ownership to these images.  Saturday Night: Untold Stories of Sexual Assault at Harvard is edited by Harvard undergraduate students. Our advisor is Sarah Rankin, Director of the Office of Sexual Assault Prevention and Response at Harvard University.  This publication contains a variety of opinions concerning sexual assault. As editors, we do not endorse one particular view but leave it up to you, the reader, to decide where you stand. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS Saturday Night would not have been possible without the help and contributions of a few individuals. Our deepest thanks go to the Saturday Night staff: Parul Agarwal, Francis Cambronero, Christopher Hopper, Jenny Martin, Jonathan Stevens, and Felicia Sun. We also would like to extend a big thanks to Francis Cambronero who spent countless hours on the magazine’s layout design, Parul Agarwal for her creative visual input, and the staff at OSAPR for their guidance and support. Finally, this publication would not have been possible without the submissions themselves. Thank you to all our contributors for your willingness to share your stories and experiences. Your words will touch many people and will be used to raise awareness and dialogue about this important issue. 2 April 2013
  • 4. TABLETABLE OF CONTENTS OF CONTENTS 4 5 7 8 11 12 13 15 16 19 The Question We Can’t Ask This is About Freshman Year Take Care To My Ex I Am Afraid of Parties You Can’t Be Friends with a Rapist 2x Friday Night To You [Untitled] There is a Marked Difference…. Resources Saturday Night at Harvard 3
  • 5. Who tells us the questions we can’t ask? Who says when things should be kept secret? When did I stop asking myself about it? Where did I hide all the things I wouldn’t ask? Why did it happen to me? When will I stop feeling like it’s my fault? The Questions We Can’t Ask 4 April 2013 Will I ever forget how it felt? Will I ever feel like me again? Why can’t anyone ask me about it? What would I say if they did? When do I stop feeling like it was yesterday? When does it become ok to finally share? Why won’t I tell you why I hurt? Why do I fear your response about something I didn’t do? Would you ever forgive me? Will I ever forgive me? Will anyone ever know what really happened? Would anyone do anything if they did? ■
  • 8. It appears as if I have run through a pricker-bush. my insides and hidden places have fine fault lines about to fall to pieces if you so dare to place one finger on me, and I have yet to wash the second-mouth American-Spirit smoke from my bitter bleeding lips. My hands taste of ice cubes and salt licks, and a musty nothingness which is hard in my stomach. I will rinse away the pained mouthful of air, watch it curl and fall in avalanches to the porcelain lake where it will become the greywater. I will warm my cold feet, scrub the spring and the death of one thousand leaves off the soles. limp bleeding carcasses held in a retriever’s tender jaw: a story from my scalp. apples bruised from a late-fall storm: another tale inside my pores which cup an intensely human smell we try to hide, so we can pretend we are more than the flesh when we cannot escape our own. My dear, look in my eyes. There are not always reasons for these happenings. Storm clouds roll in and break your Hands are still your own your Lips, your Skin Remember you are made of flesh, But it cannot will itself to stagger to your feet— that is for you to do. ■ TAKE Saturday Night at Harvard 7
  • 9. To my ex, 8 April 2013
  • 10. To My ex Saturday Night at Harvard 9
  • 12. I am afraid of parties, Of finals clubs, Of drinking. I am afraid to go out And have the stereotypical college good time. I am afraid to talk to new people Who aren’t friends of friends Who haven’t been vetted as cool and trustworthy. Because my friends are all great; They never do anything I don’t want to do. And if we go too far, Well, that’s my fault For not knowing my limits before going in. And I can’t even imagine how awful that would be With people who aren’t my friends, Who I may never see again, Who don’t care about me, And who won’t be criticized if I run home crying. But the truth is, I want to meet new people, Make new friends, Maybe even find someone special. My friends are great, But more would be even better, right? More perspectives, more voices, more insights, More people. But I am afraid of meeting people, Of them dismissing me as nothing more than female Because I wear skirts and dresses and low cut shirts Because I have breasts and hips and a waist and long hair Because I enjoy being adorable outside of the classroom. Because, you see, I am more than female. I am a person, full of thoughts and fears and love. Who needs to be treated as a person Or she breaks. And so I am afraid of parties Where no one knows my name, Let alone me. ■ 2x Friday night I am Afraid Of parties By a quiet, anonymous girl Saturday Night at Harvard 11
  • 13. You can’t be friends with a rapist, they said, You’d never let a rapist hang out in your crowd. You don’t go to crazy raves or sleep around, That kind of friend just wouldn’t be allowed. Rapists don’t comfort you when you’re upset, Or offer to help you with your homework. He’s not a rapist; he doesn’t fit that description. At worst, a few times he’s acted like a jerk! But most of all you go to heavenly Harvard, There aren’t any rapists here. Going to a great place like this takes care of that, You couldn’t even know a rapist, have no fear. It’s easy to avoid rapists- they all look the same, They feed people drinks and act super sleezy, You wouldn’t meet that kind of person, so just relax, Avoiding that kind of friend is far too easy. You can’t go on trips with a rapist, And you wouldn’t go out to bars with one. You wouldn’t hang out every weekend, A rapist would definitely not be so fun. Rapists aren’t our peers or our classmates, They don’t live in our houses or dorms. They don’t eat in our d-halls or share common spaces, Anyone who says otherwise, surely misinforms. But he can’t be a rapist, he’s got too many friends. A rapist can’t be handsome, funny, or charming, They don’t do well in school or plan nice dates. You’d know if a person’s behavior was harming. You wouldn’t have great memories with a rapist, You couldn’t possible care about that kind of person. You wouldn’t have great conversations, So drop these accusations before opinions of you worsen. A rapist doesn’t dress so well or smell so nice, They don’t cheer you up and make people laugh. They aren’t the leaders of their organizations, Or deal with added frustrations on your behalf. You can’t be Friends with a rapist 12 April 2013 Rapists don’t go to Harvard. Trust us. You can’t be friends with a rapist. So many people still call him friend, It may be so clear but they keep on denying. It’s not easy to see someone for who they are, It took me a long time to finally stop rationalizing. ■
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